The wilderness could be such a draining experience, but it is also a time for learning and self reflection. Through all of these ups and downs I have been learning a few things. The question that has been on my mind is... Is this world worth going to hell for? My answer is NO ! So my solution is to walk away and that is what I am going to do. My soul and the souls of my family are way too important to risk on a world that will one day soon be destroyed. The next thing I have found myself doing is storing treasures up here on earth. I have been cleaning out my home for the last few days and I realized I have a lot of nice things, but we don't enjoy them because I was afraid the kids would break them or mess them up. I realized that I can't take these things with me when I go, so instead of storing up earthly treasures and keeping them safe, I am going to focus on storing up Heavenly treasure that will last forever. Another thing I have learned is that until you learn the lesson that God is trying to teach you, you will stay in the wilderness until you do. My pastor shared a passage that really struck home with me last night. I could never understand why the world works the way it does sometimes and bitterness began to set in, but in 2 Thessalonians 2: 10-11 says And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of truth, that they might be saved. And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie. I want my prosperity to come from God because my life reflects His glory. From this I choose to love the truth, to love the Word of my God and to burn it into my heart and mind. To obey Him and to live according to His Word no matter what the cost. This wilderness experience has been hard, and it is not over, but the wisdom I have gained and lessons I am learning have made it all worth it.
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not desmayed; for I am thy God: I will Strengthen thee: yea, I will help thee: yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.